シロクマの物語!

Feels like this has been my temporary place to go when I feel like crap lol. Dad's boss and his company are not doing very well recently. And my mom asked me to move back to my room until they fix the study room. Not like I am sad with that decision. There might be a chance as well, since well, the master feng shui guy said so. But I don't mind moving back if that brings my dad back to tracks again And there's the part where i need to pay for braces Not sad at all tbh But maybe I will do it around March if that's the case Since I need to pile money sia But the fact I'm sad is that Why can't I just go When your parents are saying that you guys so geng then settle yourselves lah But they refuse to let you leave the house I AM REALLY ON THE VERGE ON BREAKING Like, I really can't do this anymore Can I just rent a room and stay outside

When times are tough and I have no where to go to, I think I will always come back here...after 5 years since my last post lol. Reason I came back here: 1. No one will see this except me I guess, since it's long abandoned 2. I don't feel like want to tell all these dark secrets to people, and yet a part of me just want to write it over here so that maybe some stranger will read this, and move on, at least part of my story is known by someone else 3. I have friends who are busy with life, and being me, I don't like to trouble people, even if it's just some small matter 4. I need to let some of my words out, before I implode. So here I go I feel like committing suicide at times, even though I'm already this old. I'm always conflicting with myself on...my own self. People who know me, will know that I have a great life for now. Like I have a job that is actually fun, and what I've always wanted. I have family, who actually care for me, but I don