i was hoping

ya what am i thinking...
i have always think that you see me as an original little sister...
but you're just like the others...
take my school grades as a comparison...
here i am...
i thought you look at me differently!
i want to be original...
maybe someday you saw this and you're still thinking that i'm loved by everyone...
you say i'm like a goddess in the house...
i have better grades compare to you and her...
and i'm an obdient little sister...
i admit that you treat me really good...
but lemme tell you something...
about what you say that you don't have the brain...
i really wanna slap you...
or should i say...
you make me feel dissapointed on you...
so that's how you think of me huh!?
you like to play...
you like to hang out...
you hate studies...
do you think i like studies!!!?
*except for that weird cousin of ours...
you think that i like to stay at home??
reading books(storybooks and books are different...so don't combine them as one)
i also like to hang out!
i like to do something wild...
which i always did in school...
because i know at there nobody treats me like an alien...
they never take grades to compare with me...
and they treat me like a sister...
just like how you treat me...
well except for the treats...
but i do admit again that the whole thing goes wrong because of my bad temper...
and i don't think people know that i have an extremely bad temper...
and 'without wax'ly i would like to say i'm sorry...
deeply truely sorry...
i know even infinities of sorry won't heal you from her scolding...
and i don't care that you abandon me...
leave me alone...
make me feel like i'm stranded on an deserted island...
or whatever...
but i want you to know is that...
i really look up on you....
as a brave and strong sister...
because you never gives up on what you do...
remember that...