afraid=scared

how should i begin this...
erm...
everyone says that:oh your biology so good....no problem la!
or something like this:haiya...you always scores full As' la...a little exam nia mah...
but there's something they don't know...
is that i am really afraid or exam...
whenever it's the monthly or the mid term or the end term...
it's the same...
when it's the really serious type of exam...
like the upsr,pmr...
i've always cried...
because i can't stand the pressure...
everyone's looking at me...
wondering do i did well in the exam....
but of course i tried my best...
and make my parents proud...
just that sometimes you just wish you can stop carrying the burden...
the burden that make people think that i'm some really serious bookworm...
some really top student...
anyway if i'm a top student to you then what's the girl who always get 1st place in exam to you?
i was numbered right in the middle...
and you think that's cool...
why my sisters can just be someone irresponsible but i can't?
sometimes i wish to be like them as well...
have some fun that you never felt before...
but then...
just forget it...
maybe i'll survive for the next 4 days...
since i sounds like i'm writing a will...
hahahaha...
well it's time to get back to the reality...
i haven't finish my history...
since i was like dreaming and mtv is too tempting for me...
hahaha....