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what the f***!!!!! i am really sick with you chuah yoke lyn... everytime you just leave your dirty laundry to me... and what the heck are you thinking... do i look like a slave huh do i!? i dunno why everyone thinks that she's a sweet adorable girl... *vomiting while typing*' she's just a bullshit... like just now i tell her that she should keep the laundry already... *mom FINALLY let her precious little daughter do chores...like if we didn't shout at her that this is really not fair... my big sister starts doing chores when she's 10... and i started doing it when i was 9... and now she started doing it when she was 14... wao what a number... grr... now going to eat with miss all mighty.... crap this day can't get any worse...

really really emo right now... haix... dunno what happen to me anyway... i just do some math for like 1 hour... and went downstairs for 5 bleach episodes back to back... *toshiro~~~~~* and then came upstairs do some math for like half an hour... and then i went down again... flipping through some channels... and then i got emo... how ironic can that be... today is the last day of the new year... so gonna bid farewell for my new year... and then work hard for the rest of the year... but i just doesn't feel like study right now... i just prefer sit there hugging on a pillow... wish that dino will be off work soon... *michelle can't even get near to her phone right now...T.T and then talk to her.... i just feels like suddenly there's this tense up feeling inside me... this is just 1 big crap... i set the 'canon in D major' on repeat mode in my phone... and i told myself that stop freaking yourself out!!! i want my laptop back... i want to go on ...

paramore!!!!! is having a concert in singapore!!!!!! haix... i wanna go... but by time i'm having school... and also the audition stuffies... going to pray my uncle today... and then 5 hours of non stop add math and math~ tomorrow's monday...T.T

is it me? or because of the stressing life i'm having now... it's saturday... and then it'll be sunday... and then MONDAY... geez... i should just told them that i don't wanna do the interclass... but gotta depends on my classmates... and i know i sucks in every single subject... a)malay-----haha i hate that subject so much until i wanna chop the guy who create this language into pieces... b)chinese----not that i hate it...i'm just not good at that... c)english----HAHA...i sucks...flunk...and fail....(but never fail before) d)biology----only show interest in that compare to the other 2 science... e)physics----you think someone who likes it will fail 4 times in a row? f)chemistry----okay okay....at least not like physics...(but fail once..) g)math----my favourite subject!!! h)add math----2nd favourite!!!!!!!!!!!(likes some challenge on the intergration...) i)history----who likes subjects that need to memorise!? j)moral----refer to 'i)'... t...

just come back from school... double cocuriculum activities... and wushu was a mess... haix... never thought that something like that will happen... *don't worry xinqi...it's settled... and so i was rushing here and there... doing lots of stuffs... and then when i was having a meeting then here comes dino... *haha...didn't saw her for a long time...she looks older everyday...no offence... and then i was like:haix...no starbuck... kakaka... only get to talk to her for a while... since i have meeting and she don't really wanna intrude... she also has her own business anyways... so just leave it... and then finally the wushu is over.... *totally exhausted...i have no idea why everytime i went for wushu i ended up exhausted and tired... and then suddenly my mom rang me... 'ailyn a!!!yokelyn at where a?daddy wait her at outside but can't find her le...' 'okay okay i go find her...' like hello is she a baby? she can take care of herse...

firstly  i wanna say... I'M TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH MARTIN JOHNSON'S VOICE!!!! oh my god he has such a great voice... hahaha... anyway have my brain fried with lots of physics... light ray here and critical angle there... *insane... i'm starting to work hard my my final exam you know... haha... and also called dino this morning... because she told me that she'll come to school tomorrow... and of course i send her this message: HUH!!!!!!!!Y!!?!!!!!I TOT YOU HAVE WORK!!!!! and she said that she's going to check on us whether we did our work or not... actually she go to school for a talk or something like that... and i was like:phew...close call... not that we didn't did our job you know... just that it's........*can't describe...* hahaha... but she's gonna drop by to see us before she went there... kinda happy since it's been a while since i saw her... *some gut she has...didn't went to visit me before tuition... hahahaha......

lots of woots!!! it's holiday again... although it just last like 3 days... but i really need it you see... and saturday have wushu... T.T can't sleep until 10 o'clock now... haix... anyway really congrats for dino!!!!! *not going to announce her stpm results...or afterwards she take a knife and chop me...so scare...T.T hahahaha... hei at least there's no B in your results right... you deserve it... for working so hard on it... and when i tell her about my interclass stuffies... she told me that their class never did the interclass... and i was like whut!!!!and i thought it's a school tradition... okay then she is just encouraging me to drop my responsibilities for that and concentrate on my spm... but what if my classmates complain... *like you think being a class item representative is easy...(even the name of the pose is so darn long!) and my classmates don't even really responds much to me... haix... khailing should do the job... anywa...

this is just the second day back to school... and i'm already stress out... there's this crappy interclass... *which i dunno what to do with it!!!and my classmates are like:ohh we should do *stuffs* and *stuffs*...and the problem is they are not capable on doing that...T.T... and then the civic project... *what the ****...i hate it when i want to chase off you guys for the product or whatever... because i'm not really good with words... i can't like standing in front of the class talking about some random stuffs that are important! that's why i don't really wanna be a president of a club or whatever... *except for cw..that's different...dunno why i have this strong determination... maybe you guys will say that i was trying to run away... i admit i am trying to do that... but can you just allow me to make my last year enjoyable? i don't wanna regret... and now there' the class selling thingie... i have exam,tuition... studies,homeworks...

sometimes we just need to let go did we... well i'm going to say bye bye to my dear blue chan for now... *blue chan will spend its coming week at the sony centre... T.T... no blogging for 1 week... no mangas for 1 week... no facebook for 1 week... no catching uo with latest songs for 1 week... but since i promise myself that i will work my ass off after cny... it might be a great choice to leave my dear blue chan then... haix... and i was really pissed off today... *actually it's 1.00 a.m. in the morning... because we went to the bridge there to see the fireworks... *i don't really wanna go...my mom force me... and there's this really shite people... lighten up the fireworks beside me... and didn't even tell me that they light it here.. and so the fireworks just went kaboom... and i think the sound is to loud... i can't hear a thing after the fireworks... do you know i was so scared that time... that i almost burst into tears... imagine yo...

hahaha... gonna take my computer to the sony centre in tanjung tokong tomorrow... *there keane...i make it into the sony centre...hng the guy said that my computer has the problem since it was born... so fine with it... at least it proves that... I DIDN'T BROKE IT! *there mom!hng... anyway i'm quite emo just now... since there's no one to talk to lately... not that i didn't talk to panda and all... but i just don't really wanna talk to them about my stuffs... and waikuan is busy... so does michelle... haix... at least talks with my cousin makes me feel better... *thanks a lot... and i've decided that i'm going to study tomorrow... it's time to memorise my history duh... or i will flunk it... and which i don't want to... i just flunk it last year and i'm not flunking this year... aza aza fighting! *T.T no blogging for 2 weeks...what a crap...i'll suffer from over stress!!!no place to let go the stress...T.T...dying

yup i think that i should post as many as possible... since i will get explode if these feelings didn't got rid before school starts... anyway was really worried with the interclass... and the sivik project... i really dunno why won't the school give us the whole year to do the projects... instead of letting us do it for 1 month... we ARE EXTREMELY busy you know... and it's the 90th anniversary of our school... we have food fair... jumbo sale... like we still have the time to do other stuffs... we have endless homework and tuitions... not to forget the cocuriculum activities... haix... life is just hectic... why should i be the leader of the project!? i mean like no one vote for me... since class onitor just randomly pick... it's not fair... i hate the feeling of pressure... i hate the worrying life i am having now... i hate the life that i need to stay in class and finish up  my homework during recess... because i have double tuition in the aftern...

yo dudes i'm back!!! better finish off my blog before my computer shuts down again.. anyway found the problem of my computer... my uncle said that the fan in the computer isn't working... so gonna take it to sony centre today... yes!!! anyway i have a lot to say... just that i dunno where to start... like the day that i went to panda's house... and we 'rape' wenchien... hahahahahaha... it's fun and i think my mom is starting to loosen me up... since i was like meeting with panda at thursday,friday and saturday... thanks a lot mom!!! and also bake cookies in panda's house... it's fun... the 1st batch of the cookies are really great in shape and colour... while the 2nd batch... hmm... shapes are okay...but the colour is a bit black... hahaha... the oven is too hot i think... and the turtle cookie that tutu made was like really big size... anyways it taste great... but panda's mom said that there's no point in the cookies.......

oh yeah it's the new year!!! lalala~ gonna be fat... since i was like eating biscuits and drinking shandy for the whole day... my 2 grandmas are doing fine... and geez i lost rm1 in the gambling thingie... nothing to report... but at least tomorrow... WE'RE OFF SCHOOL!!! AND 1 WEEK!!!!!!! oh yeah~ this is just crap happy... HAPPY CNY YA ALL! LOVE YA! and thanks a lot to dino and michelle that always stay by my side even though we didn't talk a lot lately... busy life... haha

i am using my laptop now~ it's not shutting down! so happy... but i bet it will give me some surprise attack sometimes... anyway went to pray grandpa... which i never see him because he's dead when i was born... *unloyal keane and brian...never pray for grandpa before... anyway i just mop the floor... and i dunno why when i mop the floor... i'm feeling like i'm running a 24km marathon... i sweat a lot... hmm can do this as an exercise... my big sister was really cooperative... but not my little sister.. acts like she's the queen of the world again... but i really dunno what to do with her... it's just annoying... oh well time just passes by~ and i'm in a really good mood if you ask me... and also going to have steamboat with grandma and huiying them.... *ha!take that brian!you didn't get to eat! and also going to pray in the middle of the night... as usual... oh well wish i get lots of angpaos tomorrow... and HAPPY CNY!!! love ya...

what do you want for me... really frustrated lately... i didn't mean in school... i have a really great time in school... we're observing some real human bones... and some were chicken out... since it's real... i mean:hello...they're a part of our body... and i even shake hands with a skeleton body in the lab... and chat along about new year... and blah blah blah... but after i went home... and my sis and my mom was talking on some guy topic... and i hate it you know... and then my sis just said:.... oh whatever i forgot what she said... and now i just really wanna cry... i am NOT interested in any type of relationship except for friends... and i don't wanna talk about it! and also... i only will start dating or whatever after i get into university!!!!!! which part of it don't you understand! i am really angry and frustrated at the same time... until i really wanna explode... i don't like talk or meet or know guys... because i don...

this year's S5D... we're going to be graduating!!! *ht some graduation shots during schooling hours...this is just great...too bad our class teacher is absent... setting:school's foyer...and also the road of the school... ps:photographer like me will never afraid of get hit by a car!(i am standing in the middle of the road hitting this picture..) of course like we will miss out the sexay khailing... hahaha... *classic...you go girl! setting:the staircase at the foyer... this is a picture of future khailing is giving birth... kakaka... and the rest are like:take a deep breath!!suck in! *laughing on the floor... setting:school hall...i mean outside... and this is kinda blury... dunno why and how that can be happening lar... anyway you will never miss khailing again... standing with the rainbow coloured kay mo cheng... kakaka... school's fun as you can see and i was getting used to it lar... anyway my classmate just bought a domo keychain... and yes if you are thinking if ...

oh yeah school's gonna be lots of fun lately... because we gonna have some fair during schooling days~ you know like you guys watch anime or manga... and then there's this festival thingie... and each class has to do some theme like coffee shop.... or whatever... anyway and we are going to do that~~ i mean like how great can that be~ lalalalala~ and then during pj today we are like doing some push ups... *really bad at it... and then there's my friend's class doing areobics... and the song they put was this: wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy... *you can guess that.... and i was like:omg...tick tock~ *retarded smile.... and so i was like humming all along... at least i can listen to some stuffies i like during school... hahaha... and then pity panda that her dad's back... she can't go out to get lovey dovey lo... kakaka... tomorrow i'm going to get our class photo shoot... yay~ since we're graduating this year... *tear...

blue chan isn't working as you can see... haix... gonna take it to the store outside my house to repair... just wish that the store won't make blue chan even worse... i think that it's the battery problem... but i am not a tech person... haix... anyway school's hilarious today... 13 students went out to visit the court... T.T sad i didn't get to go... since i wasn't in the club... hahaha... shir and tutu get to go and so they skipped 6 classes for today... lucky there're no homeworks when they're not here... and the school photo is also out! gosh i look like some person who got beaten up... *my panda eyes...born with it...so can't help i guess... and panda was like looking at my picture... and then:HAHAHAHAHAHA... and i was like... ==... fine just ignore her will do... and then when tutu and shir came back... they're like 'yuck!'or whatever when they saw the photos... actually i think the guy did a bad job on the ...

this is like the 15th time my laptop had shut off by itself... even worse after back from the reformating... grr.... maybe it's the cpu problem... BLUE CHAN DON'T KEEP SHUT OFF DUDE!!!!!...

haix... it's sunday again... and why there's only 2 holidays in a week??? pfft..... fine then... anyway my blue chan hasn't come back to his owner's arms... so i'm not going to post up some really ugly fried egg+milk... and also went to visit huiying and huixiang... and huixiang know how to say:oh my god......... =.= i have no idea what happen to him... but he just stand in front of me and said:oh my god... i was like:i know i have a really big pimple on my face...you don't need to remind me about that because i don't care... and he just left... and then i just laid down to watch tv... and then suddenly huixiang came and stand in front of me... and then he takes his bottle and slapped on my head... not really pain la actually... just have the 'piang~' sound that's all... and then he just rubbed my head and he left... and the after a while here he comes again.. this time he climb up to my back... maybe he wanna play horsey......

no pictures today as i still haven't take my laptop back from my cousin... speaking of laptop... MY BLUE CHAN IS FREE FROM VIRUS DUDES!!!!!! aw yeah i am so god darn happy~ hahahaha.... maybe gonna take it back like tonight? hmm... we'll see... anyway went to school for the replacement thingie... have the sports event... *didn't study today...sports event before recess and some talk after recess... anyways the sports thingie is sukan tara... the help your house to get some marks for sports' day thingie.... and so my dear green house... i help you to get 3 marks you know... *full marks is 4...high jump,100m race,throw the metal ball and the long jump... i just get the high jump,100 race and metal ball... stupid long jump... the teacher said i didn't step on the plank.... grr.... i should pass!!!!!!!!! but we all just get a chance... haix... and the talk was really really boring... i ended up massaging shir and panda massaged me~ muahaha... a...

my blue chan!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my cousin said that the laptop can't be reformat... as the computer keep shutting down whenever she wanna reformat... T.T.... now i am just simply frustrated... i can't do anything... if the computer is really broken... i will never touch another keypad again... only if i wanna do the project of course... but i am now just simply sad... and panda accidentally drawn my domo also... even sad... T.T... i'm really sad about my laptop because that laptop of mine... symbolize something... blue chan is my present for getting full As in PMR... many of you may not know how important it is to me... but this is the symbol of my hard work... my paid off hard work... my 1st ever present that my dad bought me because of my results... my 1st ever laptop... my freedom of using internet without my big sister's permission... my personal access to the latest manga... my working assistant(translating manga)... and now... i will just lost ...

yada yada... i know i post this kinda late... *to me it's late... because i was like all packed up you know... 2 tuitions... homeworks... malay ORAL... T.T i hate oral!!!!! like i prefer english than malay... i totally sucks at that... so what i'm trying to say is... I SUCKS AT EVERY SUBJECT... haix... just live with it huh... anyway school's also as usual today... just skip my recess... because yesterday i accidentally let panda take my exercise book home... and so i was like rushing through the homework... T.T *anyway i took panda's chinese exercise book home anyway...i have no idea how that happen... and also have some fun... like the topic we are discussing in malay class... it's like this: malay teacher:now i want you all to write a formal letter to the hospital to make complaints... students:oh......... malay teacher:ok then what should you right about the first para of the letter... students:................................. malay ...

anyway now my bottle acts as my personal drawing pad... because i draw lots of stuffs on it... *sorry mom i know it costs like RM40++ but hey... as long as the water inside didn't get polluted or whatever right... i mean bottle is used to fill water you know... what a waste for the outside part of the bottle anyway... and sorry to monitor that i didn't did such a good job with the house stuff... and you need to take home to repair it somemore... T.T really sorry... school's fine today... classes and classes we went through... and also the extra class we gotta stay back for... hahaha... anyway shir is also starting to conteng her bottle too~ happy i have another partner... kakaka... another classic conversation in class... setting:malay teacher is teaching us malay's adjectives... teacher:okay now i want you guys to tell me one adjective each...start from there... (the other side of the class)so that the students in the end of the class...(us)think o...

took some cookies for tutu them... and then started school as usual... go along with the classes... and then panda just take a permanent marker and draw some love... on my bottle... haiya forget it la... *the love really looks like flies...muahaha and then i just simply take the pen and draw the rest of the stuffs... just that it's boring !!!! and panda was like so regreting that she draw a big lurve... for the r** and brenda... *the lurve she draw is really funny and crooked...not like me...pro... haix... still addicted to her love world as usual... and then this is some classic conversation we have today.... setting:panda and i saw jayjay and tutu laughing really hard... *sit in front of us...can't help... domo:you all laugh what!?i wanna join!!!! jayjay:huh...we didn't do anything le! domo:then why tutu laugh till like that... panda:dunno.... domo:tutu why you like that? tutu:(finish laughing)no la...jayjay you demo for her to see la... jayjay:(felling helpless)tutu just...