tired day of my life

kinda emo...
althought my family don't know about that...
because i don't like to do talk about it with my family...
it's been a while since i cried...
i mean yesterday...
haha...
but since cry doesn't help anything...
so just beat it...
i'm fine with it...
when i saw her throwing the phone at the floor...
and the phone was like everywhere...
i thought:i should just go to bed...
it's been a while since another drama has started...
and when i saw those really scary scenes...
all i do was hug my monkey and curl up in a corner....
and when i did that...
all the stress come up and knock on my door again...
i don't know why!
i don't wanna know why...
this is the only place i can express...
otherwise i will die for over emo and stress...
and maybe someday i will get into some stupid crappy phycological treatment...
really sometimes i thought that :do i have phycological problems?
i mean i was like a different person when i am with and without my glasses...
and also sometimes i don't think that way...
but i tell them i think that way...
and i always acts like so cheery and happy go lucky looking...
but deep inside...
do you really know me?
i'm not normal then i suppose...
i really dunno what to do or what so ever...
i just wish that i will never ever see that scene again...
of course i won't tell in detail....
this is something i can't share with anyone...
just that i can do everything to my blog right?
hahahaha... 
but i feel better now..
since i just tell my friend in school...
and i also drank some coke+7 up slurpee...
it's kinda great to be in school...
since i am the kind of person that wasn't allowed to go out with friends...
except for some exceptions...
anyway....
polar bear's current status:
*polar bear
*crow
*trumpet
*domo
*dog
*class preformance representative
*class design representative
*wushu sercetary
*emo(a bit...maybe will be fine at saturday after watching animax doing bleach for 2 hours and a half...haha)

note to shir:happy becoming an ajk of the school team!
note to dino:tell you the details at saturday...when i get my handphone and you finish working...haha

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