sad day

yesterday there's this girl...

hugging her favorite teddy bear and cry silently in the starless night...

because she suddenly felt hopeless and anger and sorrow and yet worried at the same time...

and maybe because of the sudden feeling all jumble up...

she just can't really handle it...

but of course she seems fine today...

when she heard of her uncle that just injected kimo(i think it spells like this...the girl also dunno)

and he now can't make a sound...

she felt that a sword just stuck into her chest...

and then she really don't want to visit him...

because she can't stand looking that scene...

and then she always think that why did her parents think like that of her...

and then since her dad random takes care of the home...

because he has to work and he can't seems to find a topic to talk with his daughters...

so everything is always up to her mom...

her mom say 1...

then there's only 1...

and then her mom keep asking her that did her sister study well and did she skip class and blah blah blah...

but she dunno that should she say the truth or not...

she's too scare of making decisions...

althought she should tell the truth...

but she don't want to hear any shouting in the house...

she really hates shouting and quarreling...

and she even hates to explain...

so everytime when her mom always blame her for something...

like using too much handphone and laptop...

but she never explains that because she's so scare of her and her big sister...

she dunno which side should she take...

because her mom always said she likes to backstab people...

but the truth is...

she isn't backstabbing...

when she felt that one side overdo it...

then she will take the other side...

and then vice versa...

her mom even said that after the school's starting...

no handphones are allowed from monday to friday...

actually the girl never mind about that...

just that when she wants to hear radio what should she do?

she hates opens the radio in the house also...

and besides...

except for her...

everyone in the family(her mom and two sisters)listens to chinese station...

but she prefer english radio station...

not that she don't like chinese station...

but they never report about something interesting like what she hear in the english ones...

example:do they know that now nissan is making cars that can communicated to each other?

do they know that there's this 6 year old kid that owns the biggest closet in the whole world?

and even change clothes like 6 times a day...

there's so much more that they dunno...

and actually she still have many things to say...

but she just likes to write...

she never wants to speak out...

you can say that that's why she acts so weird this year during the starting of the school...

she really hates her mom and sister also...

because they are both so childish...

one is the stupid one that never find the reason WHY...

and the other one is stupid because she always skip tuition...

and her philosophy...

'we should do what we can now,because you never know that tomorrow you will die...'

die your big stupid head!

if she do good deeds then the god will certainly get into heaven and don't need to become a human again...

althought now the girl thinks that she's doing something really bad...

and probably will get into hell...

but forget it...

they won't understand what she's saying anyway...

can santa just give her a miracle?